Monday, March 17, 2008

Rough Week

Sorry, it was a rough week. I will copy and paste from an email I sent out last Friday.
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needless to say...yesterday was a VERY, V E R Y rough day for us. it was.....difficult.

one of the worst parts is when they tried the IVs...i have never heard her scream like that. the first stick didn't take, so she had to be stuck twice (took a while for the nurse to find the vein both times).
then, the catheter was horrible. savannah is tiny and there is blockage, so it is difficult to "thread" the catheter...finally after much pushing and pushing, the catheter was in...but sav was so torn up, she was bleeding and swollen. and gasping for air b/c she had been crying so hard. and this was all the preliminary stuff! not even the test!

i kept tearing up and was trying to push the tears back. i felt like i could lose it at any time. it wasn't the nurse's fault...it happens. i just kept trying to hold it together. i felt so sorry for the little miss.

she was so worn out that i tried to feed her a little, but she passed out in my arms for about 30 minutes (mind you, she had been awake since 6:00am and it was now 11:30am--the test was at noon)...waiting for the big nuclear scan. finally it was time and we strapped savannah down on her back. i was able to sit right beside her. she couldn't move for 1 whole hour. she did okay for the first 15 minutes, then she began to cry....couldn't be consoled whatsoever....her cry turned into a yell....then a scream....and she continued to scream for the next 45 minutes. she was screaming so hard that she was choking on formula that had refluxed back up her throat...i was trying to suction her nose and mouth, but it wasn't helping much. she WAS getting air, so we couldn't stop the test. i felt HORRIBLE. she kept looking right into my eyes. i had tears streaming down my face. i felt so guilty. but tried to keep pushing the tears back.

finally the test was over (the longest hour of my life) and it took forever for her to settle down. she was exhausted. i got her to take a little more formula and then loaded her up to drive home. my mom and i barely spoke for the 30 minute drive home. i told her that when i get home, i can't talk to anyone and would go straight back to my room. lip quivering the whole time. we walked into the house, all the volunteers wanted to know how it went...as my eyes start to water, i KNOW i'm about to lose it....i unbuckle sav and see her puffy eyes (she can barely see out of them, her face was so swollen) i lift her limp body up, hand her to my mom, walk back to our bedroom and bust out the "ugly cry" for a while. i pretty much passed out in my bed after that. it felt good to get that out!

sav got a bath, wanted to play for a little bit, and then slept the rest of the day. i am amazed at the resilience of babies!

got the test results back. not good. she pretty much failed all parts of it. The reflux is worse on her left....but there is definitely an obstruction on the right. almost a complete obstruction. her kidneys are HUGE/ backed up with fluid. dr. pinto is out of town this week until monday. my pedi told me that he will more than likely want to get savannah in to proceed more quickly than we had anticipated. oh, and all three boys will definitely undergo renal sonograms as well. sav is doing well. you would have no idea she is in pain. she doesn't have much of an appetite, but other than that..she is all smiles and giggles.

so, thank you dear friends for all of your prayers and positive thoughts and kind words! we appreciate you more than ever! keep them coming! we are going to need it. i need strength to be able to look into my screaming baby's eyes without losing it. you parents know that is the hardest thing and it is really wearing on me. (and i used to think that i was a super strong woman! nothing phased me! especially medical stuff!)

anywhoo...thank God babies bounce back quickly and will not remember this. (and don't worry, i know all the logical things behind all of this...just need help with the emotional part...it has been one thing after another for the girl and i feel so sorry for her!)



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136 comments:

Anonymous said...

poor girly.....i am glad she will never remember any of this....you don't know me but I will still pray for you and that God will give you strength to get through this with your gily...she needs you...and God will help you.

Moriah from PA

alison said...

Poor little chickadee! You are resilient yourself - and you know that this is something that needs to be done even though it puts her under such duress. Sending you lots of love and prayers!

Jessica said...

I am so sorry you had to go through this... I can honesty tell you that I know how you feel when your child is poked and prodded. It tears you apart on the inside. I am glad you had someone there with you for support.. It's hard to go it alone! Just keep your chin up. :) Savannah will get better before you know it.

Stephanie said...

I cannot even imagine how hard that was. Just reading that made me cry with you. You guys are in my thoughts and prayers. God will bring you through it. But you know that already. Just try to stay strong for the little ones...

Jennifer Prince said...

((HUGS)) and prayers to you. I'm so sorry you guys are going through this. <3

amber said...

i'm totally tearing up. :( i don't have kids, but i just spent time with my friend's daughter this weekend (a real sweetheart, much the way i would imagine miss savannah to be) and i couldn't stop imagining her have to go through what you're describing.

i am so so sorry hon. you and the babies and joe will all be in my prayers. just keep hanging in there. {{hugs}}

Leah said...

Just reading this made me cry.
Bless your hearts.
I will be praying for your family.
God Bless.

jilliebean said...

Poor sweet baby girl! And poor mommy! Seeing your kids in pain and not being able to help them is the absolute worst feeling in the world! My prayers are with Miss Priss and with the boys, that they won't have to go through what little Savannah will have to go through. And of course with mommy and daddy, that you can get through it with them.

We love you guys!

Mammommy said...

Our prayers are with you, Savannah, Joe and your family.

Love, Doreen

Gavin's Mommy said...

Bless her heart. I hope everything goes well, and that the surgery is a success.

Leslie A. said...

Poor Sweet little girl! Hope everything works out and that sweet little Sav gets better ASAP!!! Prayers for you and your family as well as you go through this difficult time. I cannot imagine how hard it was to watch her go through that!!!

Joy said...

Oh Suz..I can only imagine how difficult that was to watch! I tear up when the girls get their immunizations, so I can't even imagine. I know you are tough, but its so incredibly difficult to see your children suffer and not be able to do anything about it. She is such a sweet little girl and thank goodness for the resilience of babies! They are so strong! My prayers are with you and your family as you figure out how to proceed forward. Most of all, I will pray for comfort for little Savannah during this time.

Barron Triplets said...

Not being able to do anything for your screaming baby is the hardest thing for parents to do. Thank God they are so resilient and they won't ever remember this! We're praying for Sav and especially you!

Miriam said...

Oh my - sounds like you had a really difficult day! I'm a mom of twin girls and one of our girls had to have several difficult tests early on - it was incredibly hard to watch her cry and know I couldn't stop the test or we'd have to do it all over again another time.

I think you were courageous to be there, stay with her, even as she screamed her hardest! It is such a good thing though that your doctors know what the problem is and how to proceed!

I'll definitely be praying for you & your babies as they get the testing and treatment they need. Hang in there - you are just as strong as your kids need you to be - sometimes it doesn't seem like it but God truly doesn't give us more than we can handle...so God must think pretty highly of you!

Cheryl said...

Oh, that just brings tears to my eyes as I read this. I can't imagine how tough that is to see your baby cry like that. You are the best mom and so strong. I will keep you and your little ones in my thoughts and prayers! Hang in there!

Becky said...

i am so sorry that your baby girl had to go through all of that. i'm an RN also and a mom and goodness knows i can handle anyone, anywhere, anytime, getting sick. but let it be my kids with the crud and i'm useless.

i will be praying for her upcoming procedures! (and for mama and daddy!!)

DJones said...

I understand. My daughter has gone thru this. Big, big hugs for you

Krystyn said...

Oh my. I'm holding back the tears here for you. I will keep you all in my prayers. Stay strong and know that you have the big guy on your side.

Jenny said...

oh suz,
i'm so sorry. i've kept checking your site to see if you had updated...poor little savannah. i hope and pray all of this will be over and done with for you guys. what a little angel getting through such a horrible day. sending hugs...jenny

Megann Cain said...

Bless her heart--bless all of your hearts--what a horrific day--hopefully though the doctors will be able to help her and she will jump yet another obstacle and keep on keeping on! I'm so glad she is bouncing back. I pray for you all daily. Thanks for the update. May God continue to give you both the perseverence and strength you need to weather this rain shower.

Love,
Megann Cain, Birmingham, AL

Courtney said...

I am so sorry! I know that as a mom that is THE hardest thing to watch and not be able to do anything about. I hate it when they look at you like "how could you let them do this to me"...sometimes it was easier for me to be out of the room than to be in there watching it happen and not be able to take his/her place or really to comfort them because they are so upset...

God bless you and I hope that Sav is okay. Please keep us updated on what the doctors plan to do and how she does with it all.

JAMIE'S CREW said...

I'm sorry too. Like you said, better to keep plodding forwarding as painful and emotional as it is - so that this can be fixed and left in the past. God Bless You all!

Meg said...

Lurker here but I just wanted to say that EVERY momma knows exactly what you are talking about and it is soo hard. Hang in there. I'm so glad they found out that she had a problem NOW!!! I hope they get it fixed asap to protect her little kidneys!!!!

RowdyGirls said...

Oh, I am teared up just reading your post. Had a similar experience w/ an upper GI when one of my twins was 6 months old. I thought I might actually hit the technician b/c my baby couldn't/wouldn't stop crying and was strapped down and I couldn't help her. Poor tech was just doing her job. The mama bear in us is fierce. Hang in there. Prayers headed your way.

Jessica said...

i'm so sorry you have to go through this! i teared up just reading about it. it's tough but you're right--she won't remember. lots of prayers going up for you and your sweet babies!

Williams' bunch said...

It is so hard to be the mommy and watch your babies be in pain, even if you know it is for their good. Bless her little heart...I will be praying for y'all that everything goes well and for the boys that all will be okay w/them.

Becks said...

My heart aches for you Suzanne! I am so choked up reading what you and Sav had to go through. That is the worst kind of pain when you can't hold and help your baby! You are a very strong woman! You were meant to be a mom of beautiful quads. I really don't think many parents could handle it with such grace and spirit! You and your family are amazing and I will keep all of you in my prayers!

Anonymous said...

OH! I am tearing up now! I will continue to pray for your little ones and for you to be brave!! I know it is so hard when your little ones are crying and you can't do anything about it. You are an amazing woman and God will see you through! God bless you all.

Tressa

Jennifer said...

Oh my goodness I cried through this post. I can't imagine how hard that was on you and Savannah. Fortunately she won't remember it but I am certain you won't forget it. I thank God for making kids be able to bounce back so quickly and to not remember things.
Smiles!

MamaShehee said...

Bless both of your hearts. I have a two year old and a three month old and the hardest part of motherhood so far has been when my two year old (then 10 months) got SUPER sick and I had to sit and watch her get stuck 4 times to get an IV and then get cathed. All the while she is screaming and was old enough to be able to yell "Mama". Broke my heart! I'm a nurse as well and a former pediatric nurse to boot, but that was more than I could handle. I can only imagine how badly you hurt for Miss Savannah. Praying for all of you.

Elvisina said...

I'm so sorry you had to go through this. My heart aches for you. I can't imagine the pain you must have felt watching your little girl scream. I do have a question: why wasn't she sedated? It seems so traumatic for both of you and sedating would appear to be an easier option. Unless, of course, the test requires her to be awake. Just curious... especially since you have to go through it 3 more times. My prayers and thoughts are with you.

The Wade's said...

I can't even begin to imagine how hard that was to watch your sweet Sav being put through those tests. I was tearing up just reading about it. Please know that the Steece quads (and parents) are in my thoughts and prayers.

Jeff, Abbey, and Reed Land said...

I was amazed, too, the very first time our son was in pain and I could do nothing about it...You and your family will definitely be in our prayers as you undergo more tests. Thanks for sharing with your blog friends/fans!

Jessica, Myron and Rylie said...

You are so allowed to cry for your child. I cant imagine having to go through that. But your right they wont remember and it will only help them to be healthier. I have followed your blog since your pregnancy and continue to be amazed at how sweet and wonderful your family is. Everyone continues to be in our thoughts and prayers.

Anonymous said...

I've been a long time fan of your blog!
My daughter is 4 and just had her first Urinary Tract infection, which cleared up with antibiotics. Her pediatrician just recommended a renal ultrasound and VCUG to look for reflux. I'm concerned about both tests- the VCUG sounds rather invasive and I'm beginnning to think the renal ultrasound might be, too. Which test(s) did Savannah have?? I was waiting to hear how she did. I'm glad for you that it's over!
MEWohlwend@aol.com

Anonymous said...

Reading that made me cry! How tough to have to go through that - both for you and for Savannah. And the boys have to go through the same thing???? Even "strong" people have emotional needs - prayers for YOU and the kids who have to go through all this!

Kelly said...

I wasn't even there and had a hard time reading this. I am so sorry for all you and the Princess has to endure. We will be thinking of you all.

~aj~ said...

It made me cry just reading about your terrible day. I'm so sorry that Savannah had to go through that.

Your family will be in our prayers!

Heather said...

Just had to say I so sympathize with you. Both my daughters underwent medical testing and I remember well how badly you are torn up inside watching them cry and you can really do nothing about it. We will be keeping little Miss Sav, the boys, and you in our prayers. I will definitely pray for your courage and strength.

Casey's trio said...

Oh Suz,
My heart goes out to you. I'm so glad Sav bounced right back after some rest and TLC. I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers as you move forward with new procedures and tests.

alisa said...

You are an amazing mommy! God has blessed you and Joe with these beautiful babies because he knew you guys would be amazing parents. I will definitely be praying for you and sweet Savannah.

Page said...

I'm so sorry that you had to go through that but so glad it is behind you. I'm praying for you!

Anonymous said...

Your post had me in tears! How awful that must have been for both of you! (((HUGS!)))

I am sorry the results weren't good and that the boys have to go through the testing as well. I'm sure you are thankful, though, for the medical technology that can fix this problem.

Your entire family will be in my prayers.

Melissa :)
www.withasmile.wordpress.com

Heidi Evans said...

I am so sorry that you are having to go through that. It is so hard when our kids go through stuff and you have to sit and just watch. We will be praying for you and your family. That miss Priss will recover really fast.

www.simplyheidi.com

Anonymous said...

We've been there, only our son was 11 days old. My heart goes out to you! Hope all is well with the follow up surgery. Keep us posted :)

Amanda in OHio

Jennifer said...

I'm amazed you made it through it. After a few rough test I'm very picky on who does what to Kaitlyn. I ask a million questions before they proceed. They still have problems some times like fishing for a vein (drives me nuts), but for the most part they get it on the first try. Thankfully the one time they put a catheter in her the guy was good. He had done it a lot on babies and got it on the first try. Like you I didn't handle it well. I decided she would have to be REALLY sick (like Sav) before I would allow it to be done again. My husband can’t even be in the room when she is getting stuck.

I’m sorry she is having to through all this, but thankfully you now know the problem and can get it fixed.

Denise said...

I am unclear as why they couldn't sedate her?

Randi said...

YOu don't know me, but my heart goes out to you and I will keep praying for all of you ( mommy especially - you will remember this)

teambettendorf. said...

Next time...demand anesthesia. My dd went in for surgery and was given sleepy gas before she was ever stuck once. It can be done.

Megan said...

Poor baby!!!
Poor mommy!!!
You are all in my prayers! Thanks for the update!

Deana said...

Hi again-
I hate that you had to go through the renogram. I hate that they don't make the child more comfortable before them. Thinking about them brings tears to my eyes. As hard as it was for you and for your daughter you at least know now what you need to do for her and you can take the next step to helping her and letting her kidneys heal. A renogram sounds like a no big deal, but I think until you experience it you don't know- I dread every urology apt b/c I am just waiting for him to tell us when our next one is. We are continuing to pray for Sav and you and your entire family! Best of luck!
From Tennessee :)

The Dukes Family said...

What a rough time for you and little Savannah. We'll be praying for all of you.

MichelleAnn said...

So sorry to hear that she has to go through this (and the boys too!). I'll be praying for all the kiddos!!

Christy said...

I've been checking your blog the past few days to see how things went. I'm so sorry to hear it was such a rough day. We will of course continue to pray for little Sav, for her brothers and especially for you and Joe. And go ahead with those "ugly cries" - they make you feel better and I think we all agree that you were definitely due for one. Thoughts, prayers and hugs are with you.

Christy
Tyler, TX

Taryn in NY said...

You are a trooper! And little Sav is so lucky to have you as a Mommy! I don't know how you didn't really break down long before getting home... I couldn't have done it. I broke down at my son's 12 month check up bloodwork! Your little angels are in our prayers as are you and Joe that you get through all the tests!

You're awesome!

Much Love!

kelly said...

suzanne - you don't know me, but i love reading your blog.
i'm so sorry about sweet savannah. i can imagine that was a really, really tough day for you - bless you sweet mom! i'm so glad you got to just cry it out - that's all that helps sometimes!
i will definitely be praying for your sweet girlie & also your boys. i'm so sorry you have to go through this - you guys have been through so much.
blessings to you 6 (+ your sweet beagle!)

kelly

Stacy said...

Suz -

As a "medical mom" - I understand your pain so well. I have been down a similar path many times (our son had a liver transplant when he was 10 months old). Having them look at you - with that look like you are supposed to save them - is gut-wrenching. Even to this day we get that look...

Prayers for you & Ms. Savy - none of this stuff is easy - and sending your child through though operating doors is SO difficult (I know you get that!)

Stacy said...

Suz -

As a "medical mom" - I understand your pain so well. I have been down a similar path many times (our son had a liver transplant when he was 10 months old). Having them look at you - with that look like you are supposed to save them - is gut-wrenching. Even to this day we get that look...

Prayers for you & Ms. Savy - none of this stuff is easy - and sending your child through though operating doors is SO difficult (I know you get that!)

Twinmommy2boys said...

I'm very sorry you both had to go through this. There is no worse feeling in the world then when your child is hurting and you can do nothing about it. I vividly remember a day in the NICU when a blood transfusion was needed and the nurses could not find a vein. They poked my poor son at least 8 times. I too felt like I could handle it, but as we were coming to the end of their stay and the end of a very emotional ordeal I just lost it. Crying helped some but everynow and then I still cry at that thought. I hope you all feel better soon. You all will be in my prayers.

*kt* said...

Well, my eyes were tearing up as I read that! Poor girl! Remember this too shall pass. Keep up the good work, Mom!

*kt* said...

Well, my eyes were tearing up as I read that! Poor girl! Remember this too shall pass. Keep up the good work, Mom!

Anonymous said...

Suz -

Just remember...if you weren't taking care of this now you would be dealing with it when she could remember all of this. I know it breaks your heart..I cry in a corner when my husband is holding our little girl during her regular shots (very sad..huh?)...but know..this is keeping her well..you are there with her..and so is He. I wish you guys the best..and good luck through the boy's exams and Sav's procedures!

Sara said...

I can't imagine what that day was like for you, but will be praying for you and your little ones. Just hold on to the fact that at the end of the day you can curl them up in your arms and rock them to sleep! You're a good mommy.
Sara Jo

Jennifer said...

Wow! So sorry you both had to go through that! You'll all be in our prayers!
Jennifer

Amy said...

I hate just being a part of the little shots they have to get at well baby visits- I can't imagine what you went through. Luckily, she's so young, it won't even register on her radar in 2 days!

Blair said...

We will be praying for you and your children. It is so hard when they are sad/scared/hurt and want/need our help but we cannot give it to them. I hope and pray that all goes well with her and your boys.
And yes, she will not remember this and will still love you will all her heart!

Tracy said...

Uggghhh! Poor thing! ....both you and Sav :(

I know it was so emotionally draining for you to watch that. It's so hard to see your child cry/scream like that and not stop whatever is happening to them. Like you said, at least she will never remember. I know you know this, but just keep reminding yourself that this is what she NEEDS. You are being a great mother by getting her the medical attention she needs. Hopefully this mess will be over soon! Hang in there!

Beezer Mom said...

Poor both of you! I know this is hard but she is sooo lucky to have you. You truly understand what is going on and your knowledge will help you through this rough patch. Good for you for getting things done and staying on top of it. You're doing the right thing! Get it taken care of now while she won't remember any of it. :) Hang in there - you're in my prayers....

Jolly Johnstons said...

Wow, Suz. I really admire your strength. I know I would have been so tempted to whack the technician over the head for hurting my daughter, no matter what good would come from her pain. You truly are an amazing mother, like SuperMom, times four!

Kristi said...

You just feel guilty because they want you so badly, and don't understand why you aren't helping them! But, you know, the good thing is that she will never remember this (at least for a while) - only you will. God made Moms stronger in this department, and you can handle this, even though it won't be easy! Sounds like Dr. Pinto is top notch - God will continue to bless you all!

Carol said...

I'm so sorry that both of you had to go through that. Shame they couldn't sedate both of you! But, thank goodness this has been discovered and can be taken care of before there's too much damage. Here's hoping that the boys have no sign of this problem and don't have to have the same test that Savannah did!

Anonymous said...

I am in tears as I am reading your post. You are so strong for your daughter. I know it isn't easy to see your children in pain when there isn't a thing you can do about it. Know that we are praying for you and your family!!

Anonymous said...

Wow! Poor things. You're a great mom trying to be strong for your little one. I felt so bad for both you and Sav as I read your blog. Hang in there and my prayers are with all of you.

Mommy of five

Stacia said...

I am so sorry you two had to go through all that. I know it is for the better but it doesn't make up for all that "mommy guilt". I'm so glad your mom was their and you were able to get home and just let it all out. I will keep you and miss Sav in my prayers.

TheBrantners said...

I cry everytime my baby girl gets her normal vaccinations! I don't know how you even held it togeth er at all.

So sorry you both (and well all of them) had/have to go through this! Praying that the boy's tests come back normal!

Roxanne said...

Poor baby girl! And poor momma. :(

I can't even imagine how you must've felt. But like you said, thank goodness they're so resilient. Now, if only us mommies could do the same. :)

BoufMom9 said...

Oh Suz! I am so sorry it was such a horrible ordeal for you both. Poor little Sav.
I will continue to pray for her, your boys and for your continued strength.
Much love,
Debi

Hilary said...

((((HUGE HUG))))
Like you said, I'm glad that they are taking care of this sooner rather than later so that she doesn't remember this. I can't even imagine how hard it must be to watch your little girl go through that. Did the doctor say exactly what they are going to do to "proceed"? Will she have to have a procedure/surgery? Sav and the rest of your family will continue to be in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

As tough as it is...better now than later. I had a block in my left kidney due to a conginital defect, but they did not diagnose it until I was older (in 3rd grade) and boy do I remember the pain! Sav won't remember and she will bounce back! You all are in my prayers!

Michael and Hannah said...

Makes me tear up just thinking about it! I'm soooo sorry. Will be praying for your sweet baby girl (and your sweet baby boys, too!).

Tabaitha Kaye said...

I cried with you as I read about Sav's test. She is one strong little girl and you are one strong mommy. I will be praying for you guys as you discuss how to proceed and the upcoming tests for the boys.

Jennisa said...

Oh, sweet Suz.....what a heart-wrenching post! How awful...down right awful, to have to go through that. Poor little Sav...she will be in my prayers. Hope you feel better after your ugly cry....

hugs to you, my dear....

Lindsay said...

i went through the same thing with my oldest daughter 6 years ago--cathetar/ultrasound every six weeks for an entire year! meds everyday for 5 years and then finally surgery to correct everything...believe me -it is hard but it will get better!

My name is Tammie said...

Oh gosh you poor things! Poor Sav for having to go through all that, and poor you for having your baby girl go through all that. I feel so badly for you both! Sending you both cyber hugs. Take care.

Melanieshea said...

Suz, I am crying for you!!! That is the WORST feeling when you can't do ANYTHING for your child!!! I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers!!!!
Take care!!!

lynne uk said...

I'm so sorry to read about this. I hope little Savannah will be feeling better soon and send love and best wishes to you all.

Julie said...

I got teary eyed reading your journal entry today. I know how tough it is to watch your baby go through that stuff, we've been there too and it sucks! I do the good 'ole cry thing too, makes you feel better doesn't it? Anyway, You are doing a remarkable job with your little munchkins. I love reading your blog. I think this is the first time I've signed, but I have been reading for awhile.I can't wait to watch these kids grow up, so you have to blog til they're 45, okay! Kudos to you!!!

www.caringbridge.org/visit/hayden

Anonymous said...

I know exactly how you feel. My daughter was born with Multi-Cystic Kidney disease which they discovered at my 1st ultrasound.
She was 10 days old when she had to have the whole nuclear medicine test that Sav had. They could not get the IV in, and they were going to put it in her temple, which really freaked me out. Julia also just screamed for an hour while I stood next to her crying my eyes out. I will never forget the look on her 10 day old face! Pitiful.

As soon as they were done with the test, we went to a different part of the hospital to see her Orthopaedic guy, as she was also born with a clubfoot. That same day they tried to twist her ankle to straighten out her foot and they put it in a cast. I just wanted someone to shoot me and put me out of my misery.

Julia is now 10 1/2, happy and healthy. She had a nephrectomy at 5 months (you would never know she had a kidney removed- perfect the next day), and major foot and calf surgery at 8 months. She is all sports and plays basketball, soccer, and softball. She is a ball of fire!

Sav will be ok through all of this, and God truly will not give you more than you can handle, even though it doesn't seem like it at the time.

Please take good care of yourself and try to be at peace through all of this!

Sara said...

Wow, what a draining experience for BOTH of you! I'm sorry to hear that after your rough day that Savannah's test didn't come out better. My prayers will be with you all as things move forward!

Wendy said...

Prayin' for you guys....stay strong... you WILL get through this... :)

Stephanie said...

My heart was breaking while I reading that! You are such a strong mommy! Always remember that..you have had to face many bumps, but you always write with your head held high! I will be thinking and praying for you ALL!! Thanks for keeping us updated, even through the tough times! I'm glad you got to retreat to your room for a much needed cry and nap!

Heather said...

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I'm hoping everyone is doing well again soon. You'll be in my prayers.

Crystal said...

You poor thing. That sounds awful and I cannot even imagine having to sit there and watch your little girl cry. Hugs.

Hollie said...

Suz, I am so sorry to hear about sweet Savannah. I believe at this age, it is harder on us because we remember....they don't! Praise God they don't remember!

I am constantly praying for your whole crew!

Charity Donovan said...

God bless you girlfriend! We'll say some prayers for you!

Dawn said...

I never comment, but I've been reading your blog forever. I went to Harding with you guys - Dawn Gaydos. Anyway, I have three and I've been there with the needles. It is like they are doing it to you. It reminds me of E.T. and Elliot's link in the movie - when E.T. was dying, so was Elliot.

I wish I could give you a big hug, but you're doing great, and although she can't get an answer to why, she sees the sympathy and pain in your eyes! And she knows that you are there!

Love and prayers,
Dawn Gaydos Sellers & Family
(Jon, Bree, Zane, & Little Braden)
from Niceville, Florida

Anonymous said...

God Bless you and your sweet lil babies! I am sorry you all have to endure this...I am thinking of you all!
Tracy in South Dakota

Kara said...

I read often, but don't comment much...I cried reading your comments. Our son had a minor outpatient surgery a few weeks ago and I thought that was bad! I will be praying for her and you all as you go through this trial!

SG said...

That is just awful!!! My heart hurts for you and Sav and I almost cried just reading your description of the test.
But thank God she gave you those much needed smiles when it was all over and she had a chance to recover from the day's events! My only advise... Make Joe take the boys when it is there turn to be tested!!! You stay with sweet Sav and and try no to think about it!:) Praying for all of you!

mrsvanoven said...

Omigosh Suz, your post had my eyes tearing up! Poor Savannah! :( She will definitely be in my prayers, that sounds absolutely terrible for you to watch. Big big big hugs to you guys.

Joni & Al said...

Hi Suz
I have never posted a comment before, but have been following your story since you found out you were pregnant. I found out about your story from a college friend of yours. I have a 7 month old daughter too and I have a hard enough time when she's uncomfortable because of her teething. I cannot even fathom the amount of strength you had to have to hold it together during Sav's test. I am reading this from work and started tearing up! My thoughts and prayers are always with you and your family. You've made it through some rough medical times already, I have all the faith in the world that you will make it through this one too!
Take care of yourselves.

Anonymous said...

Is there a tooth count for the quads?

Devin said...

Suz,

I am so sorry that you and Sav had to go thru this...as a mommy of a boy who was very sickly when he was little, I know the agony of watching your child in pain during those kinds of tests and things. I cried most of the way thru your post. It is really rough.

I will continue, as I have been doing, to pray for you, and for Sav, and for the boys. If we can pray more specifically for things, please let us know.

Devin in Illinois

laura said...

I am so so so so sorry...I can't even imagine what that day was like for you. I thank God that you and your little ones, including sweet Savannah, are in His hands. I will be praying for her and for you, too!

Janelle & Ella said...

Suzie, I am SO SORRY! I will definitely be praying for sweet Savannah. My little girl has had to have some tests, not even as extreme as what you just went through, but it threw me off for several weeks. I probably should have gone to Post Traumatic Stress therapy. Know I am joining the prayer warriors for this.

Anonymous said...

I am so amazed at the resilience of YOU! I'm facing some similar testing and while I'm absolutely certain that I'd rather do it than any child having to, I am still very afraid. Maybe you can take me for my test?:)

Jon and Tiffany said...

Want you to know we are praying for your family, especially Savannah, from here in Illinois! I can tell Sav's a fighter who just so happens to have a lot of prayer warriors in her corner. God's grace will shine through!

Stephanie said...

My heart hurts for you all as I read this. I'll be praying for you all as this process continues.

Hilary said...

Oh that is horrible for all of you!!! hang in there Mommy!

Collegegirl said...

The Steece girls (you included) just did not have a good day! I have tears in my eyes from just reading this today. I am so sorry that Sav has to go through this! You are such a strong mama-remember that!
Praying for Sav, the boys, and the parents!

Jody and Janell said...

My heart just broke and broke and broke when I read this. I was weeping for you!
We are going to pray for a miracle...we all know (4 babies) HE can do so waaayyy crazy things. I pray that the drs. are confused and she is healed! Praying now.
Hugs,
Janell

Anonymous said...

Just a question...How much are you having at this time (volunteers, etc)?

Emily said...

I am so sorry, what a terrible week. I will definately be praying for you guys.

Gen McNulty said...

Hey Suz,
Thinking of you and sending lots of LOVE and HUGS your way.
Call me if I can help! I'm here for ya sista!
XOXO
Gen

Sooz said...

Praying for you all. My mom went thru this exact stuff with my sister and I'll never ever forget it but fortunately Savannah probably won't remember a thing about it. This totally made me cry and I wish I could give you a huge hug. Love to you all!

Sooz said...

Praying for you all. My mom went thru this exact stuff with my sister and I'll never ever forget it but fortunately Savannah probably won't remember a thing about it. This totally made me cry and I wish I could give you a huge hug. Love to you all!

Jordan & Christy said...

I am so sorry for little Savannah. I know that those tests are TERRIBLE! i hate watching them as a nurse - i can't imagine as a mom what that would be like. We will pray for little Savannah and you for your emotional strength!

Tripletblessed said...

Oh Suz I'm so sorry I have nee through the cath part of that experince and it ripped my heart out so I can only imagine how rough the rest of it was. I'm praying for you and Savannah.

Rachel said...

So sorry to hear. I can not imagine what all that is like.

Thompson Family said...

Suz, Sav, and Family,
I am SO sorry for all that you have been through with little Miss Sav. Poor little thing! And yet she is still so sweet after the whole ordeal. You are in our prayers. I have a little boy 3 days older than the quads and I cry every time he has to have shots--which are over in a few minutes. You are a very brave and strong woman!!! God has blessed you with a great deal of courage and strength!! God Bless.

Kristen Thompson in Denver
(I know you from Harding.)

Lindsey said...

Oooooooh I am so sorry for the awful day you and Savannah had to endure. I am so thankful your mom was able to be there for you. Your sweet little girlie and 3 little men continue to be in our prayers.

Lindsey in San Diego....
ps~thank you again for replying to my Texas question.

Gammie of Pope Twins said...

You and your beautiful babies are in my prayers.

the schirano triplets said...

i just wanted to let you know that i will be praying extra hard for little savannah (and you and your family)!

Anonymous said...

Suz,I've been following your blog since last summer when I was pregnant w/ twins.By the way, I my oldest is also named Benjamin and have 4 boys, 1 girl. Anyhow,my second son, Luke recently went through a renal scan, scope, and surgery at the Cleveland Clinic, so I know how excruciating is it to see your child suffer and they don't understand it's for their own good. Savannah is in my prayers,and
you know it this will all be a distant memory with your girly all healed up and feeling better than ever. God Bless.
Amy in Ohio

.......................Honeycutt Family said...

Bless your hearts...
Praying for y'all...

Q. said...

oh my gosh. this made me cry just IMAGINING it. I kept seeing my own little girl in my head while reading - I can barely stand it when she cries because she doesn't like to ride in the car or something banal like that, I couldn't IMAGINE going through what you went through with sav! you are a strong woman, suzanne.

Jenny said...

This is my first time to read your blog. My friend, Jody, comes and helps with the quads. She always has such good things to say.
I got teary just reading about Sav. I can kinda imagine what you are going through. When my son was about 4 weeks old we had to take him to the hospital for EKG and xray - and i thought that was horrible!! Poor thing cried/screamed - I had to hold him down. The techs wanted to know whay he was crying so much - hello! being held down, doesn't know what's going on, and it was way past feeding time!! I felt utterly helpless to him! But what you expereinces is WWAAAYYY worse. I'm sorry to hear that the boys will have to endure this test as well. Hang in there! Remember, God will not give you more than you can handle! I will be praying for you, Sav and that the surgery goes well/is sucessful.

KohensMomma said...

I have been reading your blog, but haven't posted before. I just wanted to let you know we have been and will continue to pray for you and your family!

Sara Rose Tutus said...

I am so sorry that your little girl had to have that done. You are a strong woman.

Joanne said...

My oldest son had a blocked ureter, which wasn't found til he was 5. He had surg, came thru like a champ and is doing wonderful. His left kidney will always be twice the size of his right one but it is functional. He was followed for 10 yrs-nuclear medicine. He is now 24 yrs old and 6 ft 5 in tall. You and your family are in my prayers.

Melissa Mullinax said...

Oh, gosh Suz!!! Bless her heart...and yours. I'm so sorry you both had to go through that. You guys are in our prayers.

~M

Kendra said...

Blog lurker Kendra just had to comment: I'm so very sorry you guys are having to go throug this with your sweet one. I'm crying thinking about it and I've never laid eyes on your precious babies!! I had to have blood drawn on my oldest one time and it scarred ME for life (he doesn't remember, but I'll never forget!)I can't imagine going through all you just went through . .so very sorry. I'm praying for your sweet babies, and for YOU, sweet Mama!! Blessings -

Whitney said...

Still praying for your little princess. I hope everything goes well with the boys... and you and Joe!

Kristen said...

Oh Suzanne! I understand now that I am a mommy! I am sooooo sorry! I will be praying for those precious babies~ :)

Matt and April said...

My 9 month old daughter is having this done on Wednesday this week. I remember reading your blog about it and came back today searching for it to see if I could get some more info. I'm really nervous for her!

The Ripley's said...

I'm so sorry ya'll have to go through this! Sending prayers your way! :)

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